Oh to only be NORMAL....

First off, I am extremely tipsy right now. Maybe border line smashed.
So I just wish you knew... I wish I was Normal. I wish my mind was at peace. I know I struggle with mental instabilities that I inherited from my mother. Living with mental illness is hard. Harder now more than ever because no one knows what it feels like to be me. I see a drink to just numb the pain, numb it for a moment,... okay maybe longer.
I am struggling, struggling more now than ever. I wish for cancer, or something quick to just take me before I loose my mind. Its coming.... Dear God, I do not want to be my mother. I do not want to be me. I'm trapped in a world I am can't stand. I want to run.... Run fast and far away. But where would I go? I am ready.....ready ready ready to run.
I can not feel my teeth, or see this screen. I better go now and continue to fuel my numbing of emotions. I hope I Sleep tonight.

later tater.


P.S

FACEBOOK is so FAKE! Everyone see's the great moments in pictures. If they really knew what was going on behind the lines.